It’s common to hear “Everything in my life has lead me to where I am today” and it is so true!
For my entire life into my 50s, I suffered with insecurities and unidentified fears, causing me to hide, not speak my truth, give away my power, numb and gain weight. That doesn’t mean I didn’t have areas or moments of genius in my life – we all do – but these areas were largely left undeveloped, because I was fearful of first steps, reaching out, asking questions or appearing stupid.
In 2000, when I moved to Costa Rica, with my then husband, something shifted inside and I started to wake up and feel. I attribute this awakening to the healing energy of Costa Rica and her people. Free from the static, frenetic energy of Western culture, I began to hear my thoughts and felt inspired. The more awake and alive I felt, the more I could feel my body screaming at me when I’d say something untrue, agree with someone just to try and connect, or say, “Yes” when I really wanted to say, “No”!
Late in 2003, when my husband decided we needed to split for a time, my fear work began in earnest. It was obvious I couldn’t go on living an unauthentic life. My goal from then on was to understand how fear manifested in my body so I could begin to pull it out by the roots!
In 2005, after almost 30 years of marriage, I knew I could no longer fall short of someone else’s expectations, and responded, “Yes” to divorce. In that moment, the weight of the world lifted and my life was redefined. I didn’t know who I was, where I was going, or what I wanted other than to “feel” but I was ready to find out by placing one foot in front of the other.
Blessed with time and resources, my journey of self-discovery unfolded exponentially all lessons lining up ready for me to meet them with self-resolve, trust, gratitude and a clear sense of personal responsibility. Yoga, Buddhism, Qigong, Daoism and meditation came into my life supporting my intention to live consciously, compassionately, attentively listening to my body's innate wisdom.
If anyone were to say at that time, I would go on to buy a piece of cattle pasture and tropical forest and turn it into a retreat sanctuary, plus lead Qigong retreats?!… my response may have been, “Not in a million years"! But, a million years turned out to be ten, and my growth has gone hand in hand with the creation and manifestation of a vision – a dream born from walking my path and finding a heartfelt intention to serve others and the earth.
As I look back over my life, I can clearly see everything I've experienced and done is an integral part of what I'm birthing at Solfeggio. Together, as I have stretched and grown, Solfeggio has grown, and this process continues to feed me, and my life as a result is rich with meaning, purpose and a sense of enchantment.
So… Come, join me in the healing energies of Costa Rica and see what awakens in you!